Well, I didn't wallow...

Yesterday I managed to get a few things done.  It wasn't nearly enough, but it wasn't a totally wasted day.

• went to bank - I am now officially out of money for this reno/move
• took paperwork to AL Power re: water heater replacement
• Priced and decided on floor for kitchen...  laminate for 0.79/sq. ft.  YES!
• Painted the insides of kitchen cabinets
• Finished cutting in living room so Unc could paint.
• Found a refrigerator... if it's still there Friday, and we can figure out how to get it through the doors, I'm going back for it.
• Met my neighbor K.  She's super nice, and they are renovating too.  

Unc managed to get the living room painted (first coat, gonna need 2 /sadface), fill the hole in the floor where the dishwasher goes, and spackle up some holes/cracks in the kitchen.  Maybe more, but I left before he did.  Had to pick up the baby and keep the older kids from killing each other.  Then I went to Walmart for yet MORE paint and caulk.  bleh.

Still haven't finished packing for the day.  My itinerary today is:

• drop off baby with Memaw
• go start cutting in 2nd coat in living room so Unc can repaint it
• start packing last minute stuff
• take ever growing pile of stuff to donate!
• drop off lock w/ storage people!!  (I forgot... I hope they don't think these 5 days I'm late adds another month!)
• Arrange for moving truck
• disassemble Spencer's bed and Josi's bed so they will fit through the doors (and maybe the other beds too)
• figure out if I want to get another labor estimate for laminate installation or do it myself.
• If I want to do it myself, do I want to go ahead and buy enough for living room? (to be installed later)
• Hope Nick shows up to help us! LOL
• worry/procrastinate/freak out/etc....

Hopefully next time I see/talk to you, I will be done with the majority of moving, and be on to cleaning out the duplex to turn over the keys.  Wish me lots of luck!!

L.

TITLE: because I couldn't think of a better one ~

I just really don't have the words for how I feel right now.

None of my stuff is ready to go.
My house isn't finished.
My duplex isn't packed.

I just want to wallow and cry.

I've been pushing my body and my sanity to the limit, and somehow it just feels like no one else in my life is making this important or a priority like I am.  My children have not been helpful.  I was trying to leave Josi with my grandmother during the mornings, but it was wearing her out.  Then I tried to do stuff at home during the day, and the new house in the evenings after the kids got home.  But I couldn't get out the door before the older kids were arguing.  I don't mean just verbal arguing... I mean knock down drag out physical someone is going to get hurt fighting.  Over stupid stuff.  And when I leave in the afternoon, 2 of the 3 never get their homework done, and their grades were suffering.  I have begged, yelled, spanked, and put on restriction, drug them with me, and still no results.  It's insane.  I feel completely betrayed and resentful.  :(  Then I feel guilty for feeling like that.  *sigh*  I cannot do this all  myself.

I was supposed to move today.  TODAY.  None of the kitchen has been touched.  Neither has my room.  I got more done in 2 hours in the girls room than they did in 2 days.  But I've only been able to do stuff while Josi is asleep.  I've done 7 loads of laundry in the past 2 days.  The living room and kitchen at the new house still haven't been painted.  My kitchen cabinets and drawers are still sitting outside under the shed undone. unstripped.  There's a hole in my kitchen floor that needs to be filled.  There's about 12 tiles completely pulled up and missing from the floor.  The bathroom floors are still rotten and in danger of falling through.  And none of the trim in the house has been painted.  There are only 3 out of 9 windows that have the blinds hung in them.

HVAC is DONE!

Hallelujah!
I have heating and air conditioning!
SO glad to be done with that!

Started cutting in paint around the doors and windows in the living room.

Target date for moving:  Tuesday and Wednesday ~ yes,  that's 4 days left.
Wonder how many days I will last without a refrigerator.
Can I live out of an ice chest?
/headdesk

Talking out loud...

>WHINE ALERT<

I am so overwhelmed with this move and trying to finish the house that I'm paralyzed.  I'm stuck dead in the water thinking about everything that needs to be done.  I can't manage to prioritize, initiate a plan, or let go of the idea in my head that I wanted for the house once I finally moved in.  I've run out of energy and patience, out of money, and out of people to help.  Nick will only be available Friday and Sunday to move stuff, but Unc isn't off until Tuesday and Wednesday. So that leaves me without a moving truck for Nick, and without any HELP moving stuff for Unc.  I've been trying to fix the new house, clean and pack the old house, and I'm doing it with an almost 2 year old under my feet and three older children who won't help unless I turn into something akin to Mommy Dearest and Freddy Krueger mixed together.  I'm so completely over it all.

Even though I've moved at least 10 times, I'm having trouble figuring out what to do next.  I've been trying to go through things and purge as I pack.  This is going nowhere fast.

I have 4 boxes done.
I have a pile of crap stuff to take to donate.

Ridiculous.  /sigh

• I think I need to leave all the stuff on the walls, because it won't be in our way while we move.
• I think I need to start cleaning the junk off the TOP of the furniture, so it can be moved.
• I think I need to get everything up off the floor so it won't be in the way when we move stuff.
• I think I'm going to stick with leaving clothes in drawers, and just take them out of dressers to move.
• I think the clothes in the closet can stay til we are done moving furniture.
• I think I need to empty the pantry so it can be moved.
• I think that means I need to make a meal plan and only leave out ingredients I will be using before the move.
• I think I need to clean the sticky film left over from ugly contact paper out of the cabinets at the new house so my kitchen stuff will have a place to go even if the cabinet doors havent been finished yet.
• I think I need to finish painting the livingroom before I move because I dont want to paint around furniture later
• I think the kitchen being painted at the new house can wait til after the move if it has to because there wont be much in the way.
• I think the kitchen floor needs to be taken care of ASAP so it's ready for the dishwasher and refrigerator.
• I think I need to get off the computer, turn on some jams and GET MOVING!!

Wish me luck!!

Getting the carpets cleaned today ~

A little early, but now most of the traffic is out of there.  I feel like the days are wasting with nothing being done,  and I was trying to be proactive.  Maybe I'll be able to walk across the floors now without wanting to disinfect myself afterwards.

A/C is installed all but the return vents.  Will be doing that tomorrow.

Hoping to get some work at the old place knocked out.  I hate packing.

The day when you realize you only have 13 left...

Today is my *Oh Crap* day...
It's been building for a while, but it's really hit me this morning.
I'm in deep trouble.  /sigh
Here's what I still have LEFT to do ~

NEW HOUSE
Living room:

• prime and paint window seals
• paint walls and trim

Kitchen

• strip and repaint cabinets
• paint walls and trim
• reinstall chair rail
• fix subfloor and install flooring
• buy and install dishwasher & refrigerator
• drop old gas lines

Utility room

• texture and paint patch in ceiling
• drop old gas lines

Girls' Room

• paint closet and trim

Front Bathroom

• fix subfloor and install flooring
• take medicine chest down, put new mirror/lighting up

Spencer's Room

• brace ceiling fan
• fix loose outlet
• switch closet door direction
• replace closet door knob

My Room

• switch door direction

My Bathroom

• fix subfloor and install flooring
• install medicine chest
• paint
• new vanity or sink so I can open the door all the way!
• brace the tub so I don't fall through the bottom of it!

Whole House

• clean carpets
• clean and disinfect
• have cable transferred and run

Eventually

• repair water damage and leaks from carport
• repair damaged boards around the bottom of the house
• fix wiring in shed
• add a fence

OLD HOUSE  

• Purge, Pack, and Clean!!
• Have utilities turned off

Day 38...

Today was a busy day, though I have no pictures to show for it.

I started it early at home with folding/hanging/putting away three loads of clothes, plus washing and drying another; cleaned the utility room out; fed the cats, the dog, and the baby; straightened up the living room and kitchen; took out the garbage.  I finally got to eat at 10 ~ lol

My aunt and cousin drove over from Summerdale to help out today.  The four of us managed to get my storage unit emptied out and put away in the shed at my house.  I'll be putting out $65 less a month now.  I get sick knowing I've put about $4000 into that place over the past five years.  Besides saving some money, I also have easy access to all the fabric I've been hoarding.  I've got some serious sewing urges now!